Pen Pals

I finally got my dad's mailing address at his house way up in the mountains. I am thinking of writing him a letter once a week. Something for him to look forward to. Maybe get a picture printed out here and there of The Bean or both kids (since he sort of likes to think of Little Miss as a grand daughter also) for him. Keep him updated and feel less lonely. I think it's a good idea. Especially as opposed to my last brilliant idea: drop everything to move up there. Oh I can help him out by paying him to babysit The Bean. He makes more money than I do right now. And he still finds room to complain about it. I feel less bad for him than I did a few weeks ago. His birthday is in 4 weeks. I was going to go up to visit him, but he might be hunting so I am not sure. And my parents anniversary is in just about 2 weeks, so I know that will be extra hard on him. Being that my older brother just turned 30, that means it would have been their 31st wedding anniversary. I probably shouldn't keep track of things like that considering how sad it makes me. And I just can't help but think how much more sad my dad is.  But maybe sending him letters will help him feel a little less distant.

I brought my future MIL to the hospital this morning. They made me leave her there because I had The Bean with me and he wasn't allowed in the ER. Her crohns and colitis was flaring up. She's been suffering with symptoms for over a week but did not want to go to the hospital. It finally got to the point this morning when she could no longer take the pain. I felt so bad leaving her there alone though. I know her husband went there to see her. He called around 3:30 to let us know she had just gotten a room. So he probably went there shortly after lunch, which was when I saw him and let him know. And we had only left her there at 11, so hopefully she wasn't alone for too long - she hates hospitals. I hope they are able to get it under control quickly and alleviate her pain.

I finally sat my butt down and searched to see if there were any job openings with CHSLI, since my connection keeps telling me someone will call. I figure I should at the very least be prepared with what positions are available. And I could follow up as well, if I could find an opening and the contact person. There are none. Not within any radiation oncology center and not with almost all of the hospitals they represent. I think only one hospital has some admin positions available. And I would be happy to accept one, but I am not getting my hopes up for a call. Which makes me think that maybe I should apply for jobs elsewhere, as in upstate New York, Texas, Colorado, California, Delaware.  But I still need to know what my fiance's plan is before I go trying to move away. I keep telling him that it is up to him if we move away from his family. But the truth is, I am getting used to them being around. His mother and I finally have a good relationship. And she is always telling me how much she likes having the kids there so much; which makes it difficult to say "I'm going to move and you will hardly ever see them again." Part of me thinks that is what she is trying to do; get me to stop wanting to move away so that her grandkids can be close to her. And it's not that I blame her. But her son and I cannot possibly flourish here. So it is a difficult little spot to be in. How does a person move without a place to go or money to rent an apartment, but how do you move somewhere without a job? So what do you do? Keep working a mediocre job for barely enough money to pay bills until there is enough saved that if you do get a job, you can move somewhere. OR, do you try and get a good job where you are able to save up more money and then leave your good job to live where you want to and risk not getting another good job? 

Thanks for reading!

Peace & Love,
Emily