Back on Track

Every now and then I feel like my life gets out of control, my head is spinning and I don't know which way to go first. It's nice to feel like I am getting back into my groove a little. Not that life isn't still chaotic, but as long as I am finding time to do the things I love (read, write, craft, play), then I feel really great. Last week was rough for some reason but this week seems a little calmer, so I am glad for that. I finally started on a project requested by my fiance's mom. I think I need to pick up something from Michael's for it though. And I am really hoping to get to the Fabric Mill this week. I want to see what they have and what their prices are like. I also came across another fabric store by my parents old house that I had never noticed before. So I am looking forward to checking them out as well sometime soon.

I went to a craft fair in Babylon this past Sunday with my fiance's mom and the kids. It was very large. I did not like the set up. There were so many vendors, which was great, but you had to walk around a lake twice if you wanted to see some of them because of the layout. But there were a lot of people, so it would be a good one to sign up for. Every booth we walked past had at least one customer going in or coming out. I came across several clothing vendors. A lot of knitting vendors. Just a few children's clothing vendors. There were two that I took particular interest in; one because everything looked really well done and one because it looked really tacky. So I have to be sure that when we are making these items, they do not look tacky. The one that was really well done, they actually handmade the whole outfit itself, sewing the fabric together and designing them. Which is not what we are doing. We are essentially giving boring bodysuits some pazzazz. I want to get moving on making more, but I only have a couple of bodysuits left and not much money to buy more supplies. With the kids' birthdays coming up and my younger brothers, then Christmas right around the corner, I don't know where I will get the money. I can still make some things happen though. Make some new appliques and then wait until I can get more bodysuits and some tshirts, then just add them on.

This weekend we are planning to go to my Aunt and Uncles house for dinner. It's my moms brother and I love seeing The Bean play with him. It's the closest I will ever get to seeing my mom play with him because I noticed for the first time a few ago how much he looks like my mom. I had to stop myself from crying. It was so touching, and yet so upsetting at the same time. I love being there and seeing them, but it's hard on me also because it reminds me that she isn't there. That The Bean will never know my mother or how much she would have loved him. What I wouldn't do to be able to give that to him. ... On Sunday we are going to my cousins' house for his sons 3rd birthday. I almost feel bad going because my cousin (on the other side of my family) just had his sons 3rd birthday party a few weeks ago and I couldn't go. Next weekend I plan on heading up to Newburgh/Middletown to see my best friend, go to an alumni weekend event at our college, and go apple and pumpkin picking with the kids. I am really looking forward to all of it. I wish I lived closer to her. We could be so beneficial to each other if we didn't live so far away. Instead of just listening to each other, we could physically go to each other all the time and literally help.. with the kids, cleaning, whatever. She needs me right now, too, and it breaks my heart that I can't drop everything and run over there like I used to be able to. So I hope the trip works out.

We are welcoming Autumn tomorrow and I am sure excited for it. I'd be even more excited if it weren't going to rain all week. But there is plenty of time left in the season to enjoy the beautiful weather. I know The Bean is going to love it. Today he kept telling me "Out! Out! Gene Out!" and "Shoes! Mama, shoes!" I felt so bad because it was raining and we couldn't go outside. I hope we can get out a bit tomorrow. My brother wants me to go with him in the morning to get a new car so we should have plenty of time for late morning/early afternoon sunshine and warmth, as long as Mother Nature cooperates. Fingers crossed.

Thanks for reading.
Peace & Love,
Emily