When I Grow Up...

I want to be a poet, a volunteer, an activist, a role model, an entrepreneur, a baker. I want to be happy, relaxed, easy-going, successful. I'm tired of being stressed out. I feel like I know that I am the one in control of my life, but also there are so many other things that come first that I can't really do the things that I want to do. Not in reality. How can I volunteer at a homeless shelter or soup kitchen or with needy kids when I have no one to watch The Bean and Little Miss? And how can I be a poet when I can't even think straight? How can I teach my kids to handle stress with grace when I am ready to cave at any moment? How can I be anything that I want to be when I always feel so ... defeated?